Monday, May 26, 2008
Today Wasn't A Good Day
Today wasn't a good day for me. I am feeling kind of down. My mom thinks it's homesickness. I believe that is a huge part of it. I have been in Vegas for almost eight months and I spend 90 percent of my time alone. Sometimes, like today, I feel like I made a mistake coming out here. I could've went anywhere in the world, but I came here. I have made some strides as I have mentioned in some of my previous entries. But, not the amount that I would like to have made. I don't live in the nicest apartment and I don't make as much money as I would like. I realize everything is a part of the process and everything is just a step to getting where I would like to be. But, whenever you travel down any road, you have moments when you are really tired, and that's what I feel like right now, tired. I haven't sat around and waited for something to happen to me, I've chased my dreams...literally. The good thing about being out here is that I have lots of time to reflect and meditate. I have every desire to step my game up as I said yesterday. But, in all honesty, I have no idea how to do that. That's just today. Maybe tommorrow will bring inspiration and new ideas so that I can keep following my path.