My friend bought me a picture of the New York skyline and I have been in a weird place ever since, emotionally.
One of the reasons I love New York so much is because of the way it makes me feel. It makes me feel like anything is possible. There's so much going on and it makes me feel like the world is open to me. I love it! The picture has my mind all over the place for some crazy reason. I think it makes me reflect on all of my aspirations and how much of a struggle it has been to stay committed to them. The last few years it has been a difficult to not forget about them amidst all of the crappy jobs and relationships I have had to deal with in the meantime. But, everything happens for a reason and I believe that all of the jobs, relationships and life in between my dreams coming true have been for a reason and eventually all the possibilities that I think about when I am in New York, or when I stare at the picture my friend gave me of its skyline, are about to come true...soon.
I was talking to another friend on the phone and she really helped me figure out a lot of things that seemed to be impossible to figure out last night.
I am at a crossroads in my life right now. I can feel it. I am at the point where I am coming into myself. My dreams as a writer and novelist are right around the corner. I am examining my intentions and beginning to see the light as far as people's intentions with me. There is no room anymore in my life for bs. I won't accept it from others or even myself.
I am excited about the possibilities! And, I will definitely blog about them.