I am really tired. I am finally past my 90 days of making a full-time effort to become a full-time writer/actor. But, no good news yet. I went on a couple of auditions for a couple of plays I really wanted to be a part of last week and I didn't get a part in either of them. And, my internship has still not turned into anything permanent and full-time and they are still saying that they are waiting to see "what the budget looks like." In the meantime, keeping my head above water has become a struggle. I am barely able to maintain cell phone service at this point. And, my car...Well, I pray that I can keep that. I need it because I rely on it as well as other members of my family. It's really stressful being in this position. But, I trust that eventually, and soon, my efforts will pay off.
I was talking to a friend today who has a dream of being a massage therapist, but for one reason or the other she hasn't pursued or tried to do it. I told her that when you really want something you have to do whatever it takes to get it. When you have a dream you will do anything (as long as it is legal and moral, of course) to make it come true. I am happy that God blessed me with the courage to be brave enough to pursue what makes me happy because a lot of people are not. However, I do realize that while hard work does pay off, you have to be in the right place at the right time and a lot of success has to do with who you know as opposed to what you know. I am usually not in the right place and I don't really know anyone (at least they haven't presented themselves) who can give me the resources or introduce me to experiences that I need to get me where I want to be. But, again, I will leave this up to God. And, I hope and pray He leads me in the right direction and helps me meet the right people who will mentor me and help me realize my dreams.
I write this blog because I want anyone who has a dream to realize, IT AIN'T EASY! None of us are entitled. We are going to have to work and work and work to make our dreams come true. And, I hope to eventually have entries where I talk about the other side of the dreams...the fruition of them. WOOOOOO HOOOOO! Can't wait for that !
As always, keep your fingers crossed and if you know of any internships, auditions, jobs, etc. that may help me in my efforts, please leave a comment on my blog.