Sam @CUSP Conference 2015

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Chasing the Dream...Day 170

This has been an emotionally weird week for me. I feel somewhat confined and I want to widen out in my career. I've felt this abyss of longing and I am not quite sure how to fill it. Well, I kind of know-Working! Working! Working! I know I want to be in a higher tax bracket. I know I want my own office. I know I want to travel. I know these things and I know it's going to take a lot of hard work. Well, I am up for the challenge! I plan to have an intense remainder of 2009-I am going to release the second newsletter edition of I Love LuLu, print my children's book, The Pillowcase, get my website up and running and find time to do some stand-up and poetry in between. Plus, I will be working a second job a few hours a week to try to fund some of these efforts and finance my move to D.C. I want to get my Master's degree from Howard University in Media Studies & Mass Communications. That is the goal.

Last Thursday I read a poem at the Poets, Pages and Scribes event held monthly at The Southfield (MI) Public Library. Great event!

I turned 28 this year and apparently that was the cue for people around me to tell me what I should be doing, who I should be and it inspired this:

Almost 30
Almost 30
The way people say that to me makes it almost seem dirty!
"You ought to have this much money."
"Live in this type of house."
"You need this type of man."
"Ooh, and you don't have any kids yet? You better get on top of that-you might have six to seven good baby making years left in you."
I would walk away from these conversations feeling inadequate as if I was in a race to some sort of finish line and didn't have the right walking shoes.
So, finally I decided to try to explore what "almost 30" means
Apparently, it is some sort of big deal, right?
And, what I figured out was the only difference between now and when I was say 21-is that I have the cognitive maturity to define who I am and what "almost 30" means to ME
NOTHING
Just that....
Well...
I am
Almost 30
Goodnight
xoxo
Sam

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

The people who made those comments about where you are, and where you should be don't know you. Not the real you. You are on your path. No matter how hard it gets keep putting one foot in front of the other. Eventually you'll get to where you are going. At the very least, you'll have a great journey. The alternative is the lives that the naysayers live-normal. Why do normal when you are extraordinary.

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