Sam @CUSP Conference 2015

Monday, December 14, 2009

Chasing the Dream...Day 265

I have so much to catch you guys up on. So much has been going on...

At this point I am feeling that the office life is not for me. The last four years I have experienced so much negativity in office settings and frankly I can't take it anymore. During my most recent experience I experienced bias and I was singled out several times. It was a really weird and backwards experience. It started off well and then they flipped the script. The good news is that all of these experiences are helping me to grow and opening my eyes to what I really want out of life. And, what I really want is this... I want to perform. I want to act. I want to write novels (although I'd love to do some theater reviews every now and then also). I don't want to be stuck behind a desk pushing papers the rest of my life. Honestly, I guess I've been scared and maybe even a little lazy. I have been caught up in the mentality that I can't make a living as a performer and that it's unrealistic that I will ever get a book deal. I haven't really had anyone pushing me-my family just isn't that way. So, I have just been running along on the mouse wheel and when I got time here and there I would do the performing thing. My job (former internship) fired me. It was an unfair/unprofessional firing. But, I believe it was a sign from the universe. I believe it was God telling me to get off the wheel and go for what I really want and what I am really good at. I'm an artist and I don't think I could ever completely be happy or fit in punching a clock at 9 o'clock and 5 o'clock.

I'm a little scared because I am not sure how I am going to make my ends meet. But, I have faith that they will. Mitch Albom said it best in his book, "Have a Little Faith", and I feel the same way and that feeling is what is going to keep me going. "I am in love with hope." At this point, that is what I am holding on to.

Anyway, check me out at Shotz Bar & Grill tomorrow night in Hazel Park, MI. I am not exactly sure, but I believe the show starts at 8p.m. You can text me or go to my Facebook page to find out. As soon as I get my confirmation for the time I will update my status.

Have a good day!

xoxo
Sam

P.s. I visited New York this past week and had a blast! It was one of my fave trips, ever. I am inspired. I saw FELA produced by Will & Jada Pinkett Smith. It was absolutely thrilling. Check it out if you are the NYC area anytime soon.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Fired?!????!?!??!?!?

-KJH

Anonymous said...

Sam, you already do more then most! I'm kind of hurt to hear you talk as if your giving up. I sit on my 9 to 5, five to six days a week with a billion dollar idea on my mind. Now the funny thing is, It's nothing on the market like it but their products out that are similar. I have talked to several engineers, 2 at Wayne State, 1 is a professor that keeps spinning me.. They all give me the same answer,"It's to complex, extensive research will have to be done'!! I don't even need them to build it, all I need is the blue print on how it might work so I can patent the idea and shop it. MY idea turns 5 years old next year... I say that to say this, THE WORLD IS FULL OF DREAM KILLERS... But your wayyyyyyyyy to close to quit now. I know it can seem like a lot of work when you don't have anybody assisting you but it won't always be like that. The closer you get the more people you will find helping you get closer to your goal!!

P.S. You Need to do some weekend performances!! I'm all out of E Days...

Detroit Girl said...

I'm not giving up at all. Like I said in my blog post its a blessing to have been fired because it's bringing me back to where I belong and that's performing. I have never been and won't ever be happy behind a desk or stuck in an office for 8 hours a day. It's just not me. I've been performing since I was three years old and never took the time to really pursue it with the passion it deserves. This has been a wake up call for me. I am dedicating the next year or so to only performing and see where it takes me. I give up on pushing papers, not on my performing career. I'm excited and hopeful...Make sure you come out and check out one of my shows sometimes. Thanks for leaving comments as I love feedback! Muuuuuaaaah! Have a good one :)

Anonymous said...

Well, I can't wait to see you the BIG screen! Let me know when the weekend performances are...