Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Chasing the Dream...Day 721
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First of all, here is a link to my latest writing endeavor:
I haven't spoken to you in about a week so let me catch you up briefly.
The show in Durand, MI this past weekend was amazing! There were about 300 plus people in the audience and they were some of the warmest, friendliest and one of my favorite audiences I have ever performed for! Thank you Durand!
It was an honor performing with all the wonderful female comics I worked with. There are not enough of us and it was a blast getting to act a bit silly with them.
I performed for the first time last night at Connxtions Comedy Club in Lansing, MI. It was a cool show and I got to work with the super hilarious Dan DeCapua again so that was awesome!
Thank you to my friends who came and supported those shows and to those who were there with me in spirit and sending positive vibes and good energy.
I don't have anymore comedy shows lined up-yet. I plan on taking some time to rest, be inspired and write and then I want to try some stuff out at a few open mics. It's time for some new jokes.
My rehearsals for my play opening up in April start in two weeks so it will be nice to be rested for that process as well.
I am struggling a bit with what to do next with myself.
As you know, if you have been reading this blog, I am committed to making my dreams of writing, acting and comedy come true. But, sometimes it is hard to figure out what direction to take. Do I stay in Michigan? Do I move back to the West Coast? Do I move East? Do I focus more on the writing and less on the performing? Or do I do both? Should I go back to work full-time to fiscally support some of my writing endeavors, for example, self-publishing my novel "Everything is not Enough." What's a girl to do? I wish, honestly, that I had a guru who could just give me all the answers. But, I don't. I can't see into the future and I have to make my own decisions based on my gut feeling or by creating a "pro and con list" as one of my closest friends, Toni, suggests.
I know that if I would've never left the West Coast I wouldn't have discovered my talent for writing and performing comedy. I wouldn't have started writing again and feeling like a true journalist and I wouldn't be back into theater.
I would've still been working my nine-to-five and hoping that, by chance and luck, a break would've come along.
So, I know coming back was not a mistake because I grew as an artist by being back in Detroit. But, is it a mistake to stay? Have I grown as much as I possibly can here and is it time to take it to the next level elsewhere?
I have fallen in love with my city. I love Detroit and writing entertainment features for publications here in the city has opened my eyes to the creative movement happening here and its surrounding areas. I want to be a part of it! I am a part of it and I want to remain that way!
There's a lot of contemplate.
Don't even get me started on the fact that I am going into a transition and a new phase of my life getting older and there are goals that I want to accomplish in my personal life as well. But, when you have a dream such as mine you can't give that the attention it deserves because dream chasing is a full-time gig. But, I am getting older everyday. And, age is only a number to me but I am aware of time.
There are so many questions looming right now!
P.s. To all of my fellow dream chasers who get frustrated that things aren't happening quick enough for you and you don't understand it-know that hard work does pay off! I haven't reached all of my goals but I am getting closer everyday. Please don't spend your time just thinking about the future and letting extrinsic forces determine your happiness. Celebrate who you are today and what you have accomplished presently. Know who you are as a person and artist and let your love of whatever it is that you do whether it's making music, writing poetry, painting pictures or faces be the force and the intrinsic quality that keeps you going and makes you happy. Outside forces can be taken away but it's the not so obvious and intangibles that bring true joy!
Keep pushing ya'll and I will too!