Sam @CUSP Conference 2015

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Chasing the Dream...Day 737

This is a picture of me as the "Alcalde's Wife" in Carmen at the Detroit Opera House almost two years ago. This was the role that ignited a spark in me to pursue my dreams more aggressively.

I had only been back in Detroit a few months when I was a supernumerary at the opera house and it inspired me to write again-creatively. I started writing a one-woman show and I wanted to get back on stage after that experience.

Right now I am just trying to keep my head above water and remain motivated.

It's really hard to stay up and motivated about my dreams coming true with the world the way it is and the economy showing no signs of a turnaround.

I am blessed because I get to write as a professional freelance journalist. It feels good to finally be able to call myself that. Lord knows I worked hard to get to this point.

Honestly, I'd love to be able to be a staff writer and write for one newspaper, magazine, online outlet, etc. But, in this market that's an unrealistic goal, unfortunately.

Or, I'd love to go on tour with a show and do the theater thing.

I'd love to open for some comedy tour and focus on my stand-up. This may happen one day. It's just a matter of continuing to write and perform and get better and better and build an audience for myself.

The reality right now is that I am coming up on a milestone and I want a bit of stability in my life right now. I've done so much and I still have a lot to get done but I'm changing and so are my needs and wants professionally and otherwise. I'd like to know what my paycheck will look like every week. I'd like to not worry about bills. I'd like to not think about finances. Being an artist is wonderful. It's the starving part that is getting to me.

The amazing thing about the past 737 days of intense dream chasing is that I have had and I am still having one of the most creatively fulfilling and one of the most beautiful, as hard as it is, experiences of my life. I've always known what I've wanted to do-since I was three years old. I've always been dancing, singing, writing and creating since I was a baby. And, to finally have the opportunity to do it full-time has been a blessing. But, the truth is that I may have to make it a part-time pursuit soon as I try to go back to 9-to-5ing. The beauty of life is that you never know what's around the corner and God may have other plans for me and maybe my dreams will come true.

Stay tuned to this blog to see what happens.


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