Sam @CUSP Conference 2015

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Saying Goodbye and Giving Thanks

It's the day before Thanksgiving and I am feeling grateful, happy and content--grateful for all the blessings in my life like my family and friends, happy and grateful for all the rich blessings God has given me this year.

I feel so blessed to have been able to teach the 24 gifted teen girls I tried to nurture through theater arts. We had our last class together this past Saturday and said our goodbyes (although, I hope to surprise them with a visit, soon). I will never forget them and I hope they will remember, at least, a piece of what I tried to instill in them and find a way to improve their lives despite the challenges they face.

It was a rewarding experience and I feel like my heart grew a million times larger. I feel like I changed so much through that experience. And, it made me want to commit to being a better person in my own life. I plan on teaching in some capacity for the rest of my years and I have to be a good example in all things. I can't ask anyone to improve themselves if I am not committed to doing the same.

I told my students once, "If what you're doing has to be kept a secret from someone, then it's probably not the right thing to do. You want to do things in your life that you, and others, can be proud of." I hope they remember that and I will keep that affirmation for myself.

I feel that we, people, have two choices--we can give back to the world and make it better OR we can make it worse by hurting ourselves and/or others. My students have so much talent and the potential to be great and make the world better, I hope they will. I pray for them and myself to do so.

Jah has helped me find true happiness this year by helping me discover a way to honor someone that I loved very much, my aunt Sherry, and help others at the same time through my growing volunteer program, Shakespeare Against Cancer.

By the beginning of January 2013, we will have hosted four performances in four months. I am so excited to see where this program goes and to help more children and adult patients. The arts provide medicine for the heart and I am beyond happy to administer some of it to a community that I love very much--and, hopefully, other communities all over the nation one day.

I am also happy to have the support and love of my friends, fellow actors, dreamers, doers and Detroiters in my endeavors. It's cool to have a vision, but one thing that I know for sure is that nothing can be done alone. I am blessed to have people in my life who support my philanthropy, acting, read my theater critiques and have my back for all of the other things I have going on professionally and personally. I love you all. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. And, I hope that I can be as good of a friend to you as you have been to me. You guys are stiff competition, but I am going to try :-)

My happiness and joy also comes from the fact that I am employed and have health insurance. It sounds funny, but it is so true. I was a starving artist for a long time and a cold could've meant bankruptcy. LOL. So, I am happy that I have a job that allows me to get sick and do something about it.

I am grateful for the clarity this year has brought into my life.

I feel myself evolving as a woman. I know who I am. I know I have no tolerance for insincerity and bull schnelli (yes, schnelli). I know that it is okay to say goodbye. I know that it is okay to love someone and not have them in your life. I know that my heart is open to welcoming them back into my heart when the time is right to let them back in it.  I know that I want to be surrounded by inspiring, thoughtful, caring, deep, loving people. And, I am happy that I have those type of people around me.

I am excited to know that the possibility of falling in love one day exists. I am excited to try new things--I want to become an aerial artist and ballerina--no matter how old I become. I am excited to watch my niece and nephew become adults. I am excited to watch Detroit become a great city, again.

I just feel clear and open and that has brought lots of understanding and excitement
This has been quite the year!

Let's finish it out with a positive and fun BANG!

Happy Turkey Day!



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